The Whole 30...Ready or Not, Here I Come! (Ready Preferably!)

Since my sweet Baby Dog Trace died in October, I have been eating anything and everything I want.  I've had no control and honestly haven't cared about what I put in my body.  Grief is a strange beast.  Feeling empty and trying to fill the hollowness that is my heart, isn't relieved by filling my tummy, yet I keep trying, knowing it's not going to work.  I've tried to find the motivation to get back on track and take care of myself, but unfortunately, motivation has not showed up to the party.  The only thing that has showed up is 8 unwanted pounds and a whole lot of pain and shame.

I've decided to do my best in my attempts to change the bad habits that have evolved over the course of my life, specifically since October.  On May 13th, I am going to start The Whole 30©.  Understanding my destructive patterns revolving around food and the need to discover the source of inflammation causing pain in my body led me to choose this program.  The Whole 30© removes sugar, dairy, gluten, sweeteners, alcohol, grains, legumes and all processed food from one's diet.  Basically everything yummy. Poof. Gone!

I started preparing a month ago, ordered the book and the companion guide and began to research and mentally psych myself up for this transformation of eliminating all that is yummy, yet not satisfying to my grieving brain and my aching body.  Honestly, I am scared to death.   I am depending on my therapist to guide me through this journey because I know negative self talk will come into play.  Boy, does she and I have some work ahead of us!  I appreciate any encouragement you can throw my way!  I welcome feedback from anyone who has attempted this journey.  Of course, if anyone wants to join me on this adventure, please do so!  We'll hash through it together!

For the most part, I embrace my curves.   I mean, I have had them since 4th grade!  Unfortunately, as I age, my weight contributes to health issues.  I have type 2 diabetes, high cholesterol and hypertension.  I'd say it's about time for me to take control of these issues and focus on my desire to be a better version of myself.  Actually, the time has come and gone more times than I can count, so in what is left of my 45th year, I'm jumping in, no looking back!

So here's to a healthier future.  I'll keep you posted along the way.  The good, bad and ugly, you're probably going to get a variety because I'm not going to hold back!